Monday, January 21, 2008

Examination Of Why I Post Blogs

Just an observation:

Is it just me, or does it ever seem like you mostly post these silly blogs when you are not in a good place in your life? Maybe not. But it for sure seems that way to me.

I would have to say that most of the things I have posted on here (besides something promotion wise) was posted out of some sort of shitty emotion, i.e. being angry, depressed, lonely, etc.

Additionally, I know that most of the time I feel compelled to post my thoughts and feelings is when I am between relationships. Strange eh?

Is this due to the fact that being single, you are looking for attention? I guess it could explain on a subconscious level why I might post more in this state. I'm sure there are other reasons wrapped in there as well.

There are times, of course, that I may be exceptionally excited about an event or person/place/thing (remember your nouns), that I am called away to the magic (see: waste of time) of the internet to post my thoughts about whatever may be, so that 4 or 5 random people may skim through it and leave a pointless comment about it.

One thing to think about (at least for myself) is the fact that I don't really have a lot of friends. I know plenty of people, but I guess by choice and my charming elitist attitude, I keep very few people close to me. I do, however, have several levels of acquaintances ranging from those that I may say hello to, and those that are almost what I consider friends.

Why do I mention this? Well, in posting a blog about my state of mind on the public forum of the McWeb--, I am inviting anyone to read a text based reflection of myself at a given moment in time. Now most of the people on here I would consider an acquaintance, by which I mean no offense. But do I really care what people will think or say in regards to this? Not really, no.

So in summation I guess this is really just some sort of personal therapeutic vehicle for collecting and focusing my mind, rather then a plea for attention to those I rarely speak with. At least I hope so.

I guess I will be posting some more blogs for a while. 'Tis the season. Unfortunately.